My Style (#10)

I've worked a lot more on being assertive as an RA. This is not my strong suit but I've learned that I have to get over the fear of people being nasty with me and just do what I have to do to get my job done. I did not become an RA to make friends. I feel like I've come a long way from being afraid of people yelling at me. I've gotten used to getting yelled at this year. There are always going to be people that you have to deal with who are not nice so I've learned to stand tall and just be purely professional. I'm still dealing with nothing letting things upset me on a personal level, but that is something that I consider to be a long term goal.

I've learned a lot about taking the initiative to do things. I may not know how to handle everything by protocol but I do know how to ask people how to do things. That's something that I've always been good at for the most part. There are times when something happens and it is just so overwhelming that I don't remember to do what I am supposed to do. I've made a couple of big mistakes in this area and have learned a lot from it. I've been told a lot lately that it is good to make mistakes. I take that to heart. I now do exactly what I am supposed to do when there is a situation on campus and I feel good about it.

I plan on continuing to work on being able to confront people when they are doing something wrong instead of leaving them a note or telling my supervisor about it. I basically need to learn how to be in charge without trying to be so nice. Being nice to everyone does not always get through especially when you are dealing with people who are your age or maybe even a little bit older than you are. I do want to work on that a lot. I don't like to be mean but I'm learning how to be firm , which will come in handy with these girls. :)

Tough Times and Good Friends

Recently my friend has been having issues with her best friend from back home. I was at dinner when she texted me and asked what I was doing. She wanted to know if we could hang out because she was going through some things. Of course I could not say no. So she came over to my dorm and we sat and talked.

We are both pretty religious and practice the Christian faith so we talk about that a lot. Her friend is having issues with finding her faith again and she partially blames my friend. So my friend is rather upset about it because honestly she is a great friend to her. All of this came as such a shock to me that I didn't know what to say to her about it.

Since I was confused as to how I could help I just sat and listened for the most part. I feel like that is the best thing you can do if you don't know how to help, instead of giving horrible advice/suggestions, only making the situation worst. I'm glad that I approached the situation this way because it helped my friend to feel better.

I think that I could maybe ask more questions next time so that I can understand better what's going on, instead of assuming what the situation sounds like without actually knowing. Maybe I could offer to do something that I know she likes doing, to get her mind off of it. But at the same time I think that I should let her talk about the situation as much as she needs to until she feels like she doesn't need to talk about it anymore. I think I did well for someone who just does not like to give advice, but I am more than willing to try harder to offer my help next time. :)

CALL TO ALL YOUNG WOMEN LEADERS

I have so much advice to young women leaders. Not all of it may seem like it has to do with how these leaders can map out a great future but it is all relevent, I promise. All young women first and foremost need to know that whatever you do it needs to be what you want to do and something that you feel in your heart like a heavy rock. If you don't enjoy something so much that it hurts sometimes then I do not believe that it is your calling. I know that this seems a bit dramatic but this is how I truly feel about what we chase after in life.

I think that we sometimes mistake passion for a fling. Now, by definition a fling is a short period of unrestrained pursuit of one's wishes or desires or an attempt at something. There are over ten definitions and I chose the act of flinging as it is used as a noun not a verb to describe this feeling of only a short term longing to ATTEMPT something. I don't know about anyone else but I want my life to be much more than an attempt! A string of attempts, or ongoing tries does not cut it for me at the end of the day. Trying is wonderful but if that is all that we do in life without getting at a goal we spend our lives trying to be something or do something. Don't just try, be! Do it! Never think that your actions are trying, they must be actively doing something. Because then when things get tough trying turns into a whine or an excuse instead of an effort. We don't need thatit just won't suffice!

In my living room my mommy has a plaque that says a woman needs to know how to look like a girl, act like a lady, think like a man, and work like a dog. This quote always fascinated me and I've lived my life trying to model just what this piece of wood in my living room that I would sit and stare at daily. I decided a long time ago that I would not be one to just sit and stare. I didn't think that this had anything to do with this plaque until recently but now I know that this plaque made me think of my mommy and I looked up to her so much and wanted to be like her and model the way for others to follow what this plaque says not only in its words but what it says about women. It shows that women are so many things, not even by choice, but it also is showing us that we should embrace all of the things that we are and that this is the way to do them. Not with anger, resentment, or bitterness, but with grace. We all need to remember this. I try to.

I know that we all have issues with love from time to time. :) I just want to say to every woman to not let someone who loves you or that you love get in the way of your dreams. Do not stay or go because of them. If they truly love you then they will encourage you, with their love, to do what you need to do to make yourself better and to live your life as you originally intended. Just believe me when I say, I know that I am young but I know. It's at this time in life when it happens to us, that we let being in love be our life so I'm first hand inside of the experience so listen! This is the time when we should be looking at ourselves and figuring out who we are and not who we need to be with. I know, it's going to be love. This is a line from a song but to me it means that in life its going to be love that will set us free but it does not necessarily have to always be about two hearts, loving a person, and being with them forever. Don't get me wrong I am not knocking love! I just think that we don't realize that it is more than we can take and that it changes everything that we feel. How will we let this effect us? It's up to you to let it make you stronger or let it tear you down. We may fall down in love but getting back up is what we should live for.

I know that this is not the most formal way to tell women how to be strong and lead but I think they get the point. I'm sure that there is so much more that I could say but I am choosing to just leave the rest up to women to figure out. Others have done it to us and I think that it's a good way to let us all figure out what things mean and truly what they mean to us. Are you a leader yet? :)

Am I Productive?

I feel like I am a productive leader because I use my passion as my drive instead of letting it cloud my mind. Some people cannot seperate their emotions from the job that needs to be done. I just feel like why let your anger or your hurt stop you from reaching your goals? Let them take you to the sky! :) I know that I scored the highest on encourage the heart for my LPI results and I think this begins with home. If I encourage my own heart it comes more natural to encourage the heart of others. I am also a hard worker and I try to set standards for myself and others as a leader which is how I really get things done. I map out a plan of action even just as to how I am going to get through a long day or week. If my floor is having issues I set up a plan as to how we are going to go about fixing these issues. The thing that makes this productive is that I talk to the people on my floor so then I know their point of view and we try to understand each other's point of view on the issues. This works well for me!
I get things done by making sure that my plan is realistic. I am not always realistic but there are times that we all need to be so that we don't drown in our own goals. If you are doing too much nothing will get done! Everything will get a little work but not enough for things to succeed without breaking you down in the process. So just maintaining moderation is how I get things done.
I think that I could not do as many things so then my attention could be even greater on the things that I choose to focus on. I know that I have a lot on my plate but I know that I can handle it. I don't know if its that I haven't found the one or two things that I really want to do or if it is that I don't want to give up things that I really enjoy working on. I think for the most part I don't want to stop doing these things that I love. I'm not one of those people who has to have her hand in everything but if I feel passionate enough to sacrifice sleep or time on the phone with my boyfriend then honestly that is something that I know I need in my life or it will be on my mind distracting me from the other things that I need to get done. I also know that I can be a lot more assertive and direct. I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings or piss anyone off so I try to be subtle but as I have seen time and time again subtlety does not always get the point across. There are cases in which extremity is needed and I do need to start using it a significant amount more. I'm not 100% productive as many of us college students are not, but I am getting there. And I've also learned that being productive does not mean that I cannot have fun, take breaks, or eat ice cream first instead of last after my homework is done. I think I'm learning the difference between being productive and being miserably strenuous in the way that I get things done.

Madsen Taught Me

I learned from Madsen's book that no matter what our background and circumstance we can all prosper. I didn't come from a background with many advantages but everyone has at least one advantage whether it is materialistic or within themselves that they can use to their advantage. All of these women came from different backgrounds whether they were from a single parent home, had siblings, or a role model in their house that they could look up to, they all succeeded. I'm always telling people that they can do anything no matter what and I just seem like the crazy overly-idealistic little black girl. That may be the case but I always thought higher than what I needed to. This thinking got me into a performing arts middle and high school, it got me the title National Achiever, got me into college and many other things that I am so glad I have been apart of. Life is difficult enough as a woman so why make it harder? Make it a path that you want to remember and something that is worthy to look back on and share with others. It is not a question of difficulty its a question of where you want your place in life to be. These women chose that they wanted a great place in life and I admire them so much for this.

I feel like my friends and I can be related to these women in the way that they never let obstacles get in their way. My friends and I always try to embrace what difficulties life brings to us. There are always going to be set backs in life but we can't let that hinder our attitude. By telling ourselves that if we get through it we will be stronger we seem to be able to overcome anything.

One of my friends come from a family with a lot of problems. Her father is an alcoholic who she just let back in her life not too long ago. I sometimes think that she treats her father not very well and then I remember how much she loves him and the fact that he has let her down so much and know why she acts this way. By staying strong and not just letting him slide with everything she shows him that she will not tolerate it when he is drunk. She will not deal with it, and yet she is doing better with him than any of her other four siblings are. She is the one in charge of his will, pulling the plug if he is on life support, and she spends the most time with him. To me, that is so much stronger than she could be. I know how it is, I have issues with my father as well. She is doing better than I am.

My other friend comes from a family who is not rich, but she is well off. Money really does not equal happiness. She has struggled with depression a lot in her life. Her family may seem perfect but they have many issues. She is unhappy a lot of the time and used to be on depression medication at some point. The thing I admire most about her is her willingness to let go. She needed that medication once upon a time but realized when she needed to get off of it, instead of continuing to use it, to numb the pain. That was tough, she had to physically withdrawal from her medication, but she still got through it. She knows when to let go and move on, which helps her to make decisions in her life that will be better for her future, no matter how difficult they may be.

These are strong women that I surround myself with. I learn from them everyday. They think that I am doing well and they tell me how much they look up to me but they don't know that they are the ones who influence me to wake up in the morning, to go run my erronds, and to know that sometimes you have to skip a nap. They keep me grounded and also keep me from drowning. My friends bring honesty to me and I need so much of that in my daily decisions. I love the strength that they give me. :)